After a 3 month gap, due to my foot injury ... I could not wait to get back to dancing again.
But the coming back was a bit least warm than I have wished for...
Recently, I have read a tango blog where the author refers to the term "wallflower" related to (female) dancers in Milongas. She claims that at some early stage all followers had to be submitted to this kind off gentle torture, while one weaves up into the complex (somehow disturbing- I find) Milonga social/hierarchy net.
I am in no doubt going trough a wallflower phase... I dont enjoy it, I dont understand it, but I will endure it ( even if it takes me scarifying my out friday nights with friends to sit in boredom, motionless, watching other people dance)... if there is one thing I know about myself, is that I am stubborn, really stubborn...
I have been explained several times, that this is the way it is .... to be patient, that it takes time ... on one side Tango is this wonderful, intoxicating movement perfume you want to embrace, pursue, follow right away and on the other hand it is this old, rigid, irascible old man wrinkled face, a tight knot of rules, who has been dictating behavior (and perhaps who knows life's...) since god knows when...
I wonder if wallflowers and cliques are really essential ... maybe they are, maybe they are not... I will discover tough, eventually... meanwhile, cant we not just dance?
I want to finish this post by thanking once again, my supportive teachers, who kindly and patiently, keep on wisely advising me and inspiring me...
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